I’m reading a book by Liz Curtis Higgs (if you see her, tell her I love her) titled Bad Girls of The Bible…and what we can learn from them.
She tries to put herself in Lot’s wife’s shoes and gives reasons why she might have looked back…after all, don’t we all have “reasons” for our disobedience?
1) She missed the warning, don’t look back (Genesis 19:17) over the wailing of her daughters.
2) In her grief, she simply forgot the angel’s dire prediction.
3) She was curious (many an act of disobedience have been a result of curiosity).
4) She dropped something and turned to pick it up (what’s that one thing you have that’s soooo valuable, that you’d turn to pick–if you didn’t know you ran the risk of being turned to a pillar of salt?)
5) she tripped over her tunic in her haste.
6) She heard a cry for help and was moved by compassion to look. (Us women and our compassion)
7) She mourned her family and friends, lost to her forever.
8) She longed for all the material things she had left behind. (Maybe a pair of louboutins, or her school leaving certificate… certainly she needed to work in this new city)
9) She clung to memories of the past and dreaded the future (nostalgia maybe… many a time, we’ve felt the need to return to the past, to a place of certainty. I get afraid of the future sometimes)
10) She and Lot had an argument and out of habit, she whipped her head in the other direction… she didn’t mean to look back… it was the devil. (that excuse must have still been in vogue by then).
Lot’s wife (let’s call her Lottie) wasn’t singled out for punishment–“one wrong move and the woman gets it”–but rather, she chose her fate by choosing to disobey the CLEAR command of the Lord. She merely turned to look back but what she saw, the rest of them never knew.
…and she became a pillar of salt. Genesis 19:26
In conclusion, this is not an attempt to make light the consequences of disobedience, or try to play judge in any way. I just want to call out to our conscience. Lottie is a perfect example of how a “little disobedience” can alter the course of our lives forever.
Being removed from her circumstances, it’s easy to accuse her and blame her for disobeying simple and clear instructions. It’s easy to forget our disobedience day in and day out.
God’s actions are a function of His omniscience, omnipotence and all other omnis. We cannot question His judgement because we do not know the half of it. But then, here we are, alive and standing–not as pillars of salt though–because of God’s grace. Let us thank Him every day!